Be Chrissy

How hard could it be... be myself... the first of her 12 commandments is Be gretchen... how simple yet undone it is for me.

in order for me to find what truly makes me happy, i need to know who i am... who am i and who am i not?
who would i like to be? who do i try to be? why do i wish i am who im not? 

i am not: a perfect mom, a very organized person, a great housekeeper, a writer- i can pretty much spell and my gramar isnt bad, but i dont implement them in my typing, i am not a partier- thats one of those things, that sometimes i wish i could be-go out and live it up on the town, but its just not my thing,i am not athletic at all- my athleticism consists of watching it on tv.,  i am terrible with directions-give me landmarks and im ok, i am horrible with math, my time management skills need work...this list could go on, but id rather focus on the i ams...

i am: a good mom, a decent housekeeper- we dont live in filth, just dust..., i am creative, i love music, i am a people pleaser- i like making others happy, even if it results in less happiness for me., i hate confrontation, i cry easily, i am emotional, i am very co-dependent, i am a perfectionist to an extent, i would say im an overachiever, im competetive, im a bargain shopper, i love goodwill and garage sales,i am addicted to facebook- im working on that one,  i like movies, but cant watch really scary ones, and not a fan of the dark- both stemming from losing my mom, i am a christian but i am intrigued by the supernatural, i am overweight and hate it,i am a scrapbooker-very behind i must say,  i am nosey, and inquisitive...

this list can go on and on too, but it is a start... i plan on disecting it later sometime.

here is something else i am- im tired... it feels like it has been a long day and im going to bed...

till i ramble again...